Peace. What a complex concept. Everyone strives for inner peace, world peace, you name it, but what is peace? Can we define it?
Over the past few months I have been struggling to find my inner peace. Between a crazy schedule with no routine to not knowing what to do with my life after graduation, I have felt lost.
Last night I decided to write down everything that I love. People, places, things. I came to the conclusion that I need to focus on these things. I am on a quest to find internal happiness and peace and I believe in order to do that I must do what I love.
I questioned why I am spending my days doing things that do not bring me joy. I am pursuing a college degree which is not something I am particularly passionate about, but will probably open a lot of doors for me down the road.
This gave me a deep sense of fear. If I am delaying my happiness for a degree, what will stop me from delaying my passions for things in the future.
It is so easy to tell myself ‘in a few years I will be able to do what I love’. The problem with this is that I may never get around to doing what I love.
I pray that my path to peace will be obvious, but I have a feeling this will not be the case. My goal is to balance my passions with school until graduation, and then pursue what gives me joy 100%.
I believe in taking risks and I am not afraid to take an non-traditional path, as long as it brings me peace. I want to wake up each morning excited for the day.
My quest for peace may take months or even years, but I am determined to achieve this complex, mysterious state.